I Cast a Spell Over the West to Make You Think of Me

I haven't had Internet connection for a day and I almost died. Does that make me a bad person or just addicted? Perhaps I need help. Y'know, it's probably just a seasonal thing. Winter can be increasingly boring and so without the Internet there's not a lot to do. It seems nowadays everything revolves around it.

I could have cried today in drama. We were told our grades for our coursework (that I performed on Tuesday) and turns out I got an A*. But what shocked me more was the fact that I got 98%. I never get that high a score. In fact, I think that's the highest grade I've ever got for anything. I'm still in shock. At lunch, I wanted to know what other people got just to make conversation but honestly didn't realise that it would sound boastful when I told them my score. Seriously, I didn't mean to sound as if I was better then anyone, I was just amazed and speechless that I got 98%. Like I said, I never get that.

Something else that happened today was during our mini-lesson that we have during lunch. Year 11 had an assembly about what the next few months were going to be like and Mr Hunt who was taking the assembly began talking about change. The whole way through I found myself agreeing with him. He kept saying things like "You have to change the way you do things to get different results" and I just thought "Yeah, that's what I'm trying to do". He was also going on about how we've changed over the years throughout our "school life". He asked us to think back to year 2, year 5, year 9 and so on. I couldn't help being reminded of how I was in year 8/9. It was horrendous. Just thinking about it makes me cringe. I was such a greeb. How on earth did I think wearing my brother's hand-me-down hoodie and black skinnies could possibly make me interesting? I was incredibly fake and tried to fit in so much that it was just embarrassing. I wish now that someone had just taken me by the shoulders, shaken me and shouted "WHAT ARE YOU DOING!?" What a fool I was!

Things have changed now. I still see all the people I used to hang around with but to be honest, I'm glad I do. We can all laugh and cringe about how we were without explaining too much. We were all the same so none of us can complain. We're all such different people nowadays. I'm so happy I changed from what I was, but oddly, I still want to change. Does that make sense?