New Year's Resolution

Happy New Year to you all! I hope you had a wonderful last few days of 2008 and let's hope 2009 is even better then last year, eh?

I've finally decided on my New Year's Resolution; even if it is a bit late - it beeing the 3rd of January and all. I've decided I want a change. I change in myself. I want to be more spontaneous and fun. I hate how at the moment I plan everything. I go through every detail to make sure it's all a-okay and analyse the parts I'm not too sure on. For example; the other day I had to get the bus to my friend's house and I'd never caught the bus to over where she lives before. Because of this I had my mum pront out a list of bus times for me so I would know when I had to be at the bus stop. I asked 3 different people which bus stop I had to go from - just to make sure I had the right one. And even when the bus did turn up I had to ask the driver if it went to where I wanted to go. Perhaps I have a little bit of OCD? I'm not sure. But one think I do know is that I'm going to try to stop. I want to be able to do something without planning every detail. I want to go somewhere just for the hell of it; not because I have to. I want people to realise that I am changing for the better and that I'm not some boring 16-going-on-47 year old who has to make sure everything is perfect before I even think of doing something.

When I saw my dad a few days ago, he said I was getting old too quickly because I told him I liked Michael Buble. Now I think he might be right; I'm growing old before my time! I'm not saying 47 is old but you get what I mean.

You know what else I want to be able to do? I want to go to a party without being the chaperone. I want to have fun not run around making sure no-one breaks anything or anyone. I don't even have partiesl I go to other peoples. You see how sad that is? I'm sixteen and I've never had a "proper" party.

Thinking about it properly, there's actually a few things I want to achieve this year. How about I list them? Spontaneously.

• go on a rollercoaster
• eat a strawberry
• eat a kiwi
• eat more fruit in general
• party on down
• stop analysing things
• stop drawing attention to myself so much
• volunteer
• get a boyfriend?

Ignore the last one. That's my silly girly side rearing it's ugly head again. On a serious note (or maybe not so serious once you've read what I'm about to write), I've never eaten a strawberry, or a kiwi, or a melon, or a grape, or an orange. In fact the only fruits I've eaten are apples and bananas. Seriously. I'm so adventurous. :/

Okay, it's definiately time for a change. Starting from right now. I'm going to write a list of things I want to achieve this year and cross them off as I go; or add to it if need be. Wish me luck?